I have not.
Luckily, my editor is made of awesome and there was a bit of room in the schedule to give me a few more days to get this right. I’m grateful, because to turn in something less than complete is a horrible feeling – even when you know there are still copy-edits/proofs to go, later on in the publishing process.
I am very, very tired. I figured something out today to demonstrate how much work I’ve done in the past 8 days. I have worked solidly (with only breaks for food and, um, other necessary things; plus twitter ‘rewards’ every hour or two for a few minutes) for 14-16 hours per day on each of those 8 days. That’s not an exaggeration.
And I am still not done.
I’m not blogging about this to say: wow, look at me, I am so cool because I can work so hard! Nope. That’s not who I am at all, and most people (I hope!) know that. But this has been a tough week, and I still have more hard work to go – although now I am so glad that I can take Saturday off! (Because I have somewhere cool to go on Saturday, which I’ll blog about early next week when revisions are finally done.)
The reason I am saying all this here is because I realised something very important today, and I needed to remind myself of it somewhere I can return to whenever I need it. Yes, I have worked almost non-stop since Christmas. Yes, the past couple of weeks have been particularly tough. Yes, I had a bad spell of migraines which (*knock on wood*) seem to have calmed down at the moment. Oh, and yes, I had the good fortune to have another book published during the crush of deadlines. Which was so cool! 🙂
All of those things are true, and they all mean I’ve been a Busy Kaz.
But I am so very, very grateful for every part of it. Today, I almost cried because I felt so exhausted, but then I sat down with a cup of tea and did my Facebook chat for Random House, and it went awesomely! Lots of questions, lots of wonderful readers who seem to like what I do. I came away from that humbled, and a little ashamed for feeling sorry for myself earlier.
Yeah, things are crazy – juggling deadlines on multiple (multiple!) projects is something that is going to take me a while to figure out how to handle – but I’m writing and getting my work published, which is the best thing in the world. This is what I was made to do! Even when it’s hard. Even when I’m knackered. Even when I don’t have time to do things with the people I love.
So, yes. I am tired. And I’m still not done with this work.
But I am happy.