Random Kaz Updates

I am falling behind on blogging again, but this time I have an excuse. Well, two excuses… The World Cup (I’m depressed over England’s dire performance today) and Wimbledon–hopefully Rafa Nadal playing tennis will cheer me up. But enough about sport… Once I get started I won’t stop! 😉

What else is new over in Kaz Land?

Well, I haven’t done much writing–I’ll have to ‘fess up when I do the next KSC check-in post over on LJ. I was trying really hard to do the adult rewrite of DOL, but then the World Cup started, I got my cover, and my inbox exploded. Not literally, but I honestly don’t know how Big Time Authors manage all their ‘correspondence’ (I mean the ones without assistants, anyway).

I also have four manuscript crits/read-throughs to do. And two websites to work on for friends/clients. And! the possibility of another writing project that I can’t say anything about, yet. Just in case it doesn’t happen. (But it’ll be very cool if it does.)

On top of all this, there is a personal situation going on that has completely derailed my progress and left me feeling pretty sad and drained. I alluded to it a while back, but now it has become so bad that I just can’t go on pretending that my heart hasn’t been ripped out and trampled on… by someone who is supposed to care about me and has, up until now, always been someone I counted as more of a friend than ‘just’ a family member.

I guess things change.

Oh well, I move forward regardless, because that’s what we’re supposed to do. But it doesn’t mean it stops hurting, and it doesn’t mean that my work rate will magically go back to normal levels. It takes time to build up momentum again, and with that in mind–knowing that I work best in ‘spurts’–I’m going to try focusing on one task at a time, rather than doing a bit of everything but feeling I’m not getting anywhere. I think that’s what’s been happening lately. My focus and concentration levels have been badly affected so I need to work on only one project for a while, see it through to completion (hopefully!), and then move onto the next.

And on that note, I’m off to do some ‘Day Job’ work on a website. I’m learning how to use WordPress; I finally bit the bullet and bought a book to help guide me through the process of setting up websites from scratch. Normally I code them with HTML, using style sheets/templates, but I really want to get over my annoying fear of really learning WordPress. Wish me luck! 🙂

I found the above image without any credit–I wish I knew who did it.

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35 Responses to Random Kaz Updates

  1. Ari says:

    Oh Kaz 🙁 Being betratyed by a friend/family memeber SUCKS. I wish I knew how to be more eloquen than that, but we are all here for you and feel free to vent!

    Best wishes on all your porojects and when you feel down just look at your PRETTY PRETTY cover 🙂

    • Kaz says:

      Yeah, ‘betrayed’ is how it feels… Weird, considering it’s not REALLY ‘betrayal’ in the traditional (even dramatic) sense. But that’s how it feels. *hugs*

      Thanks so much, you were totally eloquent. And cool. (As usual.)

      Also! Yes! I will definitely think about my cover & then All Will Be Right With the World. Or, at the very least, I can pretend that it is. 😉

  2. Cat says:

    I’m sorry there have been a bunch of bumps in the road for you. Try to focus on the good things, I know it’s hard, but give it a chance! Just think – in 7-ish months your book will be out and all of us book bloggers will fangirl over you. ha!

    Hang in there!

  3. Tiffany Trent says:

    Big hugs, my dear. I sympathize more than you know right now. 😉 Miss you so much. I remember our tea in Covent Garden with such great fondness.


    • Kaz says:

      Me too, T. I mean it. There is a definite… lack… in email & blog communications. But you know what? I know that we’ll meet again – hopefully sooner rather than later – and it will be AWESOME! 🙂


  4. Naomi says:

    *hugs* I hope you feel better soon. Of course it won’t get better overnight but all things pass, as my mum tells me.

  5. Carolin says:

    Confession: I didn’t write anything this week either. Eeeek. I wanted to, but… this week has been a little tough for me. Oh well, next week! =)

    *hugs tightly* I’m sorry someone hurt you so much. Feel better.

    Good luck with WordPress! Conquering fears is always very rewarding. I know some of the html basics, from experimenting with websites/vBulletin message boards before, but I think I could stand to learn a little more myself, hehe. 😛

    • Kaz says:

      I don’t think I’m going to write much until the second week of July. I’ve worked out a schedule (ugh) to catch up with everything else & get the Day Job stuff done. *sigh*

      Thanks so much for the hug, I needed that. 🙂 I got your email, too. Will definitely reply (I’ll do that from my REAL email address. hehe. Yes, I’m like a ninja, with several different ones now. LOL!

  6. katiebabs says:

    Kaz, I feel your pain. I was close friend with someone for over 5 years and I cared more for them then they cared for me. One day they decided they were done with me and walked out without saying a word. It hurt and it still does, but I’ve moved on and you will to.

    Major Hugs!

  7. Liia says:

    If you learn how to use WordPress completely let me know!
    I run my blog on wordpress and am really getting sick of it. None of it works properly for me!! LOL
    What are most blogs run on? I think I need a new one.

    Hope it all works out with the personal issue. We all have them and they NEVER get easier to deal with them. Especially when it’s someone so close to you you’d do about anything for them 🙁
    It’s why I only have a few people I trust; most of them blood relatives or friends I’ve had since I was 5!
    Big huggles and love sweetness <3

    • Kaz says:

      Dude, I just checked out your blog. Nice! 🙂 Well, it LOOKS nice, even if it’s giving you a headache. To be honest, many blogs these days ARE run on WordPress, and it’s pretty reliable. I wonder if you need to update it – in your control panel there should be regular messages that tell you when to update (you just click it and it does it for you). If you’re not getting on well with it, though, other people use Blogger or LiveJournal (which I used to blog on all the time, and still like).

      Very cool to see you’re doing so well with the writing, and thanks for pimping KSC. We’ll be checking in again tomorrow (though I am badly letting the side down at the moment).

      Thanks for the hugs and understanding.

      • Liia Ann says:

        Thanks mate! That just made me so happy lol
        I just updated it, but I’m having issues with finding twitter plug ins etc that work.
        On my old computer I used filezilla to load everything up change background etc… But that comp crashed and I can’t get my password back.
        I might sit down tonight and have a crack at it!
        I wrote too much during the day and have burnt my brain out tonight lol

        Always sending you hugs and understand hun. You’re a complete gem, don’t ever forget that 🙂

  8. catie james says:

    I’m so sorry for what’s happening/ed between you and your friend; wish there were words of wisdom to impart. All I can think to say is this: from everything I know, you are a lovely and amazing person. I once hear Maya Angelou describe the people in our lives as lights accompanying and illuminating us along our respective “paths.” Anyone failing to recognize what a gift your friendship is, forfeits a tremendous light and travels impoverished route thereafter.

    • Kaz says:

      Dude, you just said you wish you had words of wisdom to impart… and then proceeded to impart those very words. 🙂 Thanks for the Maya Angelou quote/reference. Loved it.

      • catie james says:

        Didn’t seem that wise but if it did anything to help then I’m glad. I <3 Maya Angelou too. She's another one of those rare people – like you – whom I "greatly esteem." 😀 Very cool lady.

  9. ThisViewOfMine says:

    D: Drained is a good word when refuring to family issues. — I think it’s important to remember that change is good (even when it doesnt feel that way), and that everything happens for a reason. It might be weeks, months or longer till that reason comes to light. But Im sure that in the end you can learn and take something from this to grow as a person. For better or worse, who knows? :/ Oh, and I’ve learn things usually only get worse before they get better.

    I wouldn’t be the person I am today without the choices my mom has made and though I hate her decisions I happen to like who I currently am.

    • Kaz says:

      You’re totally right about the worse-before-they-get-better. It’s just that… this came from the person who I LEAST expected it from, you know? It makes it feel that much harder to move past.

      You always sound incredibly well-balanced and sensible – thanks for commenting. 🙂

      • ThisViewOfMine says:

        :] Well thats a first, nobody has every told me I’m well-balanced & sensible. So glad that you thought that instead of thinking I sounded like a know it all. Its easy to take things the wrong way online.

        • Kaz says:

          I know what you mean about online stuff, but no way! 🙂

          And anyway, I know that everything you say would come with good
          intentions, so it’s cool.

  10. Tricia Sullivan says:

    I’m sorry to hear things have got worse–I just talked to you the other day so I gather it was a bad weekend. I can guess how drained you must be feeling. Take care of yourself, hon. You have such a big heart, and when it hurts, I know it really, really hurts.


    I will e-mail you soon. Yay for WP mastery. Show that wordpress who’s boss, baby.

    {I ate a whole bag of Peanut M&M’s yesterday. Well, I gave the dregs to Rhiannon so I wouldn’t make myself sick. Was thinking of you–you made me salivate the other day, talking about them :-)}

    • Kaz says:

      Well… it’s sort of been ongoing, to be honest, but the weekend brought some things home to me. I’ve just not been talking about it. (What a surprise! *g*)

      Thanks for the *HUGS*

      Re. Peanut M&M: I suppose I should feel guilty for leading you astray. But I don’t. haha!!

  11. Dan_Phi says:

    Hopefully you focusing on one thing at a time doesn’t prevent you accepting good lucks and well wishes for them all. Well, OK, for the cover you just get oohs and aahs instead.

  12. Nikki Egerton says:

    Big hugs Karen. I had a bad patch with a close family member at the start of the year and know how tough it is. Mine seems to have turned a corner now, although my trust in them is very badly damaged. Sometimes you just have to wait around for them to grow up/see the light. I hope you find peace with the situation.

    And oh yes, England were pants! At least the torure is over now!

    Good luck with WordPress, I wouldn’t even know where to start, so I salute you ;o)

    • Kaz says:

      The hugs are greatly appreciated. Thank you. 🙂

      I think I’m just going to do what you did – wait and see, and maybe hope. Just a little. But I’m going to stop trying now.

      Thanks again,

  13. renee sweet says:

    Oh, darling. 🙁 (}) I guess this answers some of the questions in my email. Should’ve checked here first! Good luck with the WordPress stuff. It’ll be fun for you to pick up a new skill (or rather, expand your current skillz).

    • Kaz says:

      I want more skillz!! 🙂

      And thanks, I need to write to you but there’s not much to report. Nothing new, anyway. More of the same.

  14. *hug, hug, hug* I just saw this. Know that I’m always here for you if you need to talk or just be distracted. 🙂

  15. Perle says:

    Followed link from Susan Adrian’s blog.
    Love the cover of new book.
    Family and friends alike are always the biggest stress. The times in my life that were hardest with certain people was when I was successfully pursuing a dream, job, or fill (in the blank). Lost a few ‘friends’ along the way. I have a sib who turned on me once for about a year. Be true to yourself, and it will be what it will be.

    Good luck with wordpress – I started one a month back @aliasrose, and it is so different from blogger. I wish I could merge the 2 and pick from the best of both.

    • Kaz says:

      Hey, Perle! 🙂

      Thanks for all this – and thanks for stopping by. Really, I can relate to one specific thing you said there in a BIG way. I am trying to be true to myself, but that becomes a problem when the other person thinks they are being ‘true’ to THEMselvevs. You know? Well… you DO know.

      I really like a lot about WordPress, but I’m now trying to figure out how to build from scratch and install as a website – not just free blogs. Someone did mine for me (the installation part, not the content), but I want to be able to do it myself.

  16. Perle says:

    correction: typo on my e-mail

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